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its halloooowwweeeennn! which means its novemeber tomorrow. damnnn son.
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[21 Oct 2006|10:02pm] |
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well, it has been one hell of a week/weekend. let me tell you.
im tired. and i dont really feel like updating. but i will breifly.
some fucking kids, that are going to be sorry they did, maybe its one kid, i dont know. but i have reason to believe it is two, stole my debit card from my LOCKED locker at work whillllle i was working. and they used it. and they spent 420$. which put my account into the mega negatives. the purchaes were made on the same day, the 18th. in the area of michaels. so hmm OBVIOUS. and other reason which i dont want to get it into because its way too long. all i know, is i did nothing to do this, and i basically want to beat their faces in severly for making me have to borrow some money to pay some bills until i can access my accounts, because theyre frozen, in a week or so. FUMING. at first i flipped out....and went into hysterics. then i got pissed, then i went into slight hysterics, then i got pissed again, and now im in dedective mode. i had to file a police report too. i hope they catch them. these people have criminal records, so they'd get time.
bank of america is pretty sweet though, im not eligable for anything, and they even put the money back in and take out the others, before i get the affidavit to sign back to them.
basically, it feels like a dream... a bad one...andi cant wake up. i didnt do anything to deserve this. not one thing. all because of some asshole who has nothing better to do...
do yourself a favor, write see id on your cards from now on. and dont store stuff in your work lockers. apparently you can't ever be sure.
so yeah. and i have buttload of homework this weekend and i work sunday and monday. FANTASTIC!
baaahjigoer.
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seriously, i need to stop feeling sorry for myself. for the past 3 sundays ..after the morning comes, i have this super gloomy feeling, but ya know, it is kind of hard to do that when you try to put in effort and no one else around you does. it gets annoying, and it sucks when you have nothing to do and you let all these little things stew in your mind. it really really sucks.
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[04 Oct 2006|10:05am] |
gaaaaaaah
i so dont feel like studying today.
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[24 Sep 2006|10:39am] |
last night i hung out with ms. katie brooks and it was fabulous. her, myself, brando, and paul went to on the border because the bean supper fell through, then we met meghan back at brandons house and played some scategories and then watched some school of rock. twas good tiiimeee.
however, i was a bit upset that other people could not join, due to conflicts, its been a while since ive seen some peeps. especially braddlee... i havnt seen him in so long! i miss him! but, hes doing well working alot and enjoying his new pad. hopefully we can get together verrrry soon.
immmm tired. and i just woke up
i bought some fabulous shoes at payless last night..as did katie. and they rock.
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[17 Sep 2006|08:59pm] |
brandon and i drove up mount washington today. i almosted peed my pants on the way up and i thought we were going to drive off the edge, but we didnt. it was soo gorgeous. we had a fantastic day.
2 years in two days...gosh do i love him.
im going to go read now.
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[08 Sep 2006|09:35am] |
...started school tuesday. yeah, it wasnt bad. infact, it was prettygood. i like it. however, they definately do things faster than the small schools. we went right into things. i read 100 pgs the first night. oye. im not going to have alot of work, work...like writing and things, im just going to be reading a whole hell of alot.
for instance, im pretty sure i have close to 200 pgs to read over the weekend. ohmuhgaaah.
yeah, it is going to be pretty rough to have an good social life while working and going to school and reading on most of my time thats free. but, ill manage.
anyways, other than that, nothing new. infact, after i shower today, im going to have to get started on that reading.
and hopefully tomorrow night, peep gatherin, yo.
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[04 Sep 2006|10:54pm] |
tomorrow is the first day back to class.
im just...not i dont even know. i just really am not feelin it this year...i dont want to be the new kid again. for the 3rd time. yeah. and im not even a freshman. im a sophomore. and yet still, im the newbie.
annoyinggggggg.
i just hope all goes well. and smooth. yeah. and i hope i can find that building in portland...
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[28 Aug 2006|12:01pm] |
i love my friends.
and im really glad i made a few newone's this year.
they are super fun.
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[27 Aug 2006|12:47pm] |
i really want a new car now.
and it is going to be nearly impossible for me to get one. i dont even know why i have any bit of hope. there is no way someone can get a loan when theyre in college. no way.
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[23 Aug 2006|11:45am] |
so apparently i know absolutely nothing about cars because i thought mine was fine when in reality i need to get a new one.
fucking amazing.
^ sarcasim.
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[22 Aug 2006|10:52pm] |
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..not much has been happening. summer is slowly comming to a close (thank god it is slow) and things are starting to gear ahead for us all. Katie is leaving tomorrow, last night was her last night with the gang for quite sometime. it was sad, but not super sad only because i know i will see her very soon. it does not bother me when she goes back, we grew very close over the past year, we were always considered a best friend of eachothers, but now we're most definately family. i know nothing will change on her part, and neither will mine. Same goes for bradd and meghan. Once you are close like that, nothing is going to change.
so basically i have been working as much as i can, before i got back down to 22-24 hours. allthough that does not look too promising. corprate is sucking ass BIG TIME this year. she is starting to hire seasonal people but they arent giving patti the hours to give out. they wont until november, late october. She has hired 3 new people, and next week, my last week before my new availability starts, i am working 18 hours. eight. teen. the week og september 7th, i regret to inform anyone that i wont be doing squat because i will have mearly 10 cents to my name. i really can't live off 18 hours. especially at the first of the month. needless to say im freeking out about that week.
so, if anyone sees any job of any sort, that pays at least 8.75 or more an hour, let me know please.
on another note, im getting my car inspected tomorrow. please hope that i dont get screwed over. i have minimal funding to fix my ride sooo i really hope they dont "find" anything wrong with it. oye.
so it was the 22nd today. yes, was. and the world didnt end, hooray! the UN is giving Iran another week to decide on the whole wmd's thing...they seem to be procrastinating alot, but whatever. so long as no bombs drop, im all set.
bradd and nates 2 year anniversary is in a two days, congrats guys. it is an acheivement to believe it or not. love is a good thing.
speaking of which, the brando and i are celebrating our's soon in less than a month. it is on a tuesday, which stinks, cuz i have class allday, but maybe we can take off for the weekend.. hmm. i heart him.
i ordered a couple shirts, some tights, a dress thing, and a bag today online for mad cheep. i figured i mine as well use the last of my spending money. i wont be able to splurge during the school year. baaah. godbless board gamed tho. haha they always keep us entertained.
im getting a gym membership with bryan. we're splitting it.10 bucks each, not bad. i need to get it soon, its been two weeks since ive been with meg...and i feel incredibly disgusting.
this was incredibly long. give yourself a grand hug if u read it.
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[08 Aug 2006|09:16pm] |
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In fields where nothing grew but weeds,
I found a flower at my feet,
Bending there in my direction,
I wrapped a hand around its stem,
I pulled until the roots gave in,
Finding now what I’ve been missing,
But I know…
So I tell myself, I tell myself it’s wrong.
There’s a point we pass from which we can’t return.
I felt the cold rain of the coming storm.
All because of you,
I haven’t slept in so long.
When I do I dream of drowning in the ocean,
Longing for the shore where I can let my head down,
I’ll follow your voice,
All you have to do is shout it out.
Inside my hands these petals brown,
Dried up, falling to the ground
But it was already too late now.
I push my fingers through the earth,
Return this flower to the dirt,
So it can live.
I walked away now.
But I know…
Not a day goes by that I don’t feel it’s burn.
There’s a point we pass from which we can’t return.
I felt the cold rain of the coming storm.
All because of you,
I haven’t slept in so long,
When I do I dream of drowning in the ocean,
Longing for the shore where I can let my head down,
I’ll follow your voice,
All you have to do is shout it out.
All because of you…
All because of you…
All because of you,
I haven’t slept in so long.
When I do I dream of drowning in the ocean,
Longing for the shore where I can let my head down,
Inside these arms of yours.
All because of you,
I believe in angels.
Not the kind with wings,
No, not the kind with halos,
The kind that bring you home,
When home becomes a strange place.
I’ll follow your voice,
All you have to do is shout it out.
such a lovely written song.
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i dont know why i am updating, there really isnt alot to say.
there is only a month left of summer and that is totally depressing. im not ready to go back to school yet...by anymeans.
katie and i watched the boys enact UFC in brandons living room the other evening, and then we played video games. it was super fun.
im supposed to go watch brando and rick jam for a bit..and then go watch a movie at kates...hopefully all goes according to plan.
back to work tomorrow...right on through saturday. bradd and i are having a day this weekend tho, so HOORAY! i havnt hung out with him in a few weeks and we really need to. so that is exciting.
mom and i went to north conway today...it was fun.
i dont like the humidity. ew.
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| question to ponder: is life really anything more than just what it is? |
[20 Jul 2006|10:59pm] |
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so the world continues to get into complete and utter chaos. now the entire middle east and half of europe are "at war" with eachother. dear god. seriously...it is so unessesary. i cant spell that word, ever.
on another note, at work the other day, it was quite so i was just standing there being bored, and i just had a really semi-depressing thought: this is what life is. we get up, go to work, to make money, to pay off our comodities or people that in a sense have a slight control over us. we live to work, to compete to have good stuff, and pay bills inorder to have a house, food, and a car inorder to survive. it is sad that you need to have nearly all of those thing's to survive. and if your like me, you are working to get money to pay an institution to become "highly" educated to get a better job. that way you can continue to work to survive.
is that really all life is? a continuous cycle of work/living/chores/work/money/bills/work?
but, being the positive person that i am, i decided that that isnt all life is. wrather we like it or not, it is part of it, but also life is just about living. getting your feet on the ground, letting your hair down, meeting new people, taking chances, going on adventures, companionship, life long friendships, family, and hopefully falling in love and making a family and a more substantiial life for yourself. life isn't always routine. and it always wont be. it will get more exciting.
right now, my life is really routine. but once i get out of college, ill have more time to do the things i really enjoy. some people think it's the opposite, but..it really isnt, to me at least. or maybe theyre both equal. all i know is im so busy working trying to save money for school and what not, that i only get to see my friends 1-2 days a week. thats how we all are. life is so hectic. it goes up and down. but i love my life. i wouldn't change a thing. everyone around me makes it all amazing.
routine's suck sometimes, but we all kind of need one.
..sometimes i just want to yell at the world to stop. just stop. stop fighting, stop arguing, stop thinking, just stop. but my soap box isn't large enough.
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[17 Jul 2006|01:44pm] |
orientation...
was not a plesant experience. by any means.
first of all, they were really un prepaired and unorganized. friendly, but everything was off. and nothing matched up with the letters they sent or the schedual they gave us.
two: the chairman of the history department is a bitch. she only had to meet with 6 kids and was taking way too long. thank god she isnt going to be my advisor. however, my TEAMS advisor ( edu prep) is a super fun.
3rd: i had to wait inline for 35 mins to register.
4th: when i got there, the lady looked at me like i was dumb, and shes like do you have your advising sheet? and the stupid chair lady never gave me anything. SWEET. so i kind of got pissed, and i was like..." are u kidding me? this is bullshit, im not waiting in line again...this is all i have from her." and she asked if i met with my advisor and i said " i dont even have an advisor yet...shes going to give them to us." and sehs like " calm down...ill get it straitened out" and she did and then she was cool. and i got into all of my classes, but one. theyre all on tuesdays and thursdays and all in gorham, so HOORAY!
other than that, i wanted to beat things.
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[13 Jul 2006|12:12pm] |
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i have orientation on monday, and im more nervous than i was for the first day of fricken middle school. first of all, brandon and i have been so busy that i havnt been able to go down to portland and find the campus...look it around and stuff..im going to have to do that like friday. annnnd i have to be in portland @ 730. yeah...@ 730. im going to have to leave my house @ like 5.
oye vey. and im so nervous. i dont even know if all my credits transfered over yet. meghan said shed go with me. i so hope shes not working because that would make things 10 times easier. my mom said shed go...but then she has an appointment to go to so that too isnt happening.
this also means that the new school year is approaching fast.
its midway through july already...
i know everything is going to be cool. i guess im just still really nervous about the fact that its a new school...and massive.
not to mention, i found out i have to take a science. and a lab at that. im not taking chem or physics, i can tell u that much.
can't stress it. it's all good. im probably just being foolish.
on another note, with a month and half left of summer, we need to really live up this next month and half.
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[10 Jul 2006|02:17pm] |
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Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
She said somedays I feel like shit
Somedays I wanna quit and just be normal for a bit
I don't understand why you have to always be gone
I get along but your trips always feel so long
And I find myself trying to stay by the phone
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone
But I feel like an idiot, working my day around a call
And when I pick up I don't have much to say, so
I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debatin
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home
You know, the place where you used to live
Used to barbeque with burgers and ribs
Used to have a little party every halloween
with candy by the pile but now
you only stop by every once in a while
Shit
I find myself just filling my time
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind
I'm doing fine and I'm plannin' to keep it that way
You can call me if you find that you have something to say
And I'll tell you
I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home
I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, no longer debatin'
Tired of sittin and hatin' and making these excuses
For why you're not around, and feeling sorta useless
It seems that one thing has been true all along
You don't really know what you've got till its gone
I guess I've had it with you and your career
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home
Please come back home
Please come back home
Please come back home
Please come back home
-damn you mike shinoda. you've done it again.
i really like that song.
i watched Mona lisa Smile last night..i bought it @ bullmoose for 5 bucks. suuuch a good movie (clearly its a girly film) but it was just so good. and i cant remember who it was that said kirsten dunst cant act..but let me tell u, she can play one hell of a snobby bitch. she had me convinced. you should watch it. it is really good. I also bought Closer for 5 bucks...that is an interesting movie. kind of dragged out, but good none the less. romanceish flick.
i was up till 1 am...not sure why. i was just..angered. when i get really bored, to the extreme, my mind wanders and i get angry-like. im kickin my but over it now though, i dont exactly want to go into work and im ready for a nap.
saw pirates of the carribbean 2 with brandon, bradd, kate and megz on sat at the drivein, it was my first time going! theyre neat, but i got sooo sleepy and to be honest, i like the theater alot better. it was a nifty experience, we had fun.
i think brandon may be jamming tomorrow. i hope so. because im going to go over after i gymify with megz and take some more pictures. im really excited to start this scrap book. it will be displayed, damnit.
i get out of work @ 3 on wendsday. woot.
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